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today i am bumming around, trying to keep my mind off of reality, which seems to only remind me more of what is really going on. anyway, i feel like i need to post, because it has been awhile. i am doing ok, holding it together, and wishing I was in south dakota. yeah, you heard me...I said it! I miss you all and love you all back home. i am off to go look at more places with nicki and bran. lately, i have had lesson after lesson...life is a gift...life need not to be taken for granite...life is so precious...we are lucky to be alive....you get the hint?
HOPE YOU ARE ALL HAVING A GREAT DAY, AND ARE LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

mother dearest.

do you remember spanking me, because of a bathroom incident????

Six Days Until the turn of my quarter century...

ahhh. twenty five.

what the hell? really, how does time fly by so fast? I remember Dad always telling me as you get older, the clock turns faster. Wow, is that true. I remember his words, because I really couldn't grasp HOW the days really could pass any faster. That was back when I would play in the tree house for hours, then go swimming. Then came the huge decision as to what to do next. Maybe go to "the school" to play on the bars, or swing for hours, or play basketball in the silver spray painted court in our driveway. Life was so simple. The amazing thing is that children have no concept of what lies ahead of them-thank God. I always thought life was a puzzle, and you were given a piece of the puzzle day by day, and year by year. I have learned that in reality I sort through the pieces of the puzzle, to find the ones I need, and discard many unecessary pieces that don't fit in my life.
i have six days to go, but i haven't cried yet (like i did when i turned eighteen! remember mom!) i have accepted adult responsibility while still acting like a child, and i probably will the rest of my life....

the four one one...

http://www.kevcorentals.com/Images/Internal%20Photos/3%20Bedrooms/411%20N%20Shields%20St/index.htm
Here is the link to the possible house Nicki, Bran, and I are looking at moving into. My newparents...just kidding. It is going to be tons of fun living with two of my favortite people, which I don't see nearly enough. Check out the backyard picture, half of the yard is cropped out. Now imagine a giant Husky running around, and me sitting in a tree (chose any tree) and reading a book....so fun!

oh where oh where has my little becki been. oh where oh where can she be...

sooo...here i am again, can you believe what a mother bloggert i am? i have to do at least a couple of entries to make up for my past lack of bloggness. anyway, as for me...i have been very distracted by anything, and everything. i am really looking at taking becki time to listen to my inner voice, heart, self...whatever you wish.
my very blunt, intelligent friend, anna, just finished telling my what a (nice) pushover i am. it is completely true. a pushover is a good explaination. i second guess myself, don't form an opinion. if i do, i rarely voice it. i just think i have lost myself somewhere along this journey of life.
it happens, and that is the "fun" of it all...i will write more when i am so lucky!

I'mmmm baaaahhhhck...

hello everyone. i am back and badder than ever...i have been away from instant internet access for about a month. boy, do i go through withdrawl of the mere convenience. i mean, dial a phone number, and push bottons for my exact bank account balance, and transactions...or just type a few simple letters, and BOOM...walahh. my friends and i got into a conversation tonight about the way society is getting further and further from natural instinct, because of the amount of technology at hand. therefore, humans are getting to feel more and more invinsible instead of looking to the obvious warnings of nature.
this stemmed from a story my friend, who is a high school student teacher, told us about her students that can't believe she doesn't have cable tv. she said they don't even understand that is a luxury, and distraction at the same time...maybe it was the margarita talking, but there is definitely truth to that.